Little Girls

What are little girls made of?
Sugar and spice,
And everything nice,
That's what little girls are made of...

As a little girl, what do we dream of?
We dream of growing up to be a successful lady,
Meeting the love of your life,
Having beautiful children  and living happily ever after.

Now...  We're all grown up
Life isn't always a bed of ROSES
Some living our dreams, some still dreaming...

Wedding dress

Every woman should be excited shopping for her wedding dress.  Looking forward to the big day.  Ideally, making all the preparations with the love of her life means the world to a woman.  But not for her...all the mix feelings. 

She is marrying the man that doesn't love her. A man who feels trapped with her. Who doesn't think she is enough.  She loves him...He needs her.  She prays that someday, they will both love and need each other unconditionally.

Don't you ever wear a watch? She asked. No! I dont like anything on me, he replies. I dont like to wear a watch, I don't like a ring, I don't like chains and I dont like to be tied down! I wanna be free! he added. Just wanted you to know that, he says with a smile.

Her heart sank. At times like this she is awaken and reminded why he is marrying her. Sad...very sad indeed. They continued walking, looking for that 'perfect' wedding dress. Shop after shop...dresses after dresses, he was encouraging, saying...that looks good...nah...not that one! Finally found that dress that fits perfectly and looks stunning.

She can't stop her tears. She paid for the dress...  She should be happy. He hugged her and asked why she was crying. She told him that she was tired and overwhelmed...

Things that make me happy

1. The colour Green
2. My cat Pepper
3. Teh Tarik
4. Strawberries
5. Chocolate
6. Going on holidays
7. Hanging out at a book store
8. Hanging out at Pet store
9. Dancing Salsa
10. My brothers telling me that they love me.
11. My Parents telling me they love me
12. A hug from a friend
13. A girls night/day out.
14. Anything mint flavored
15. Anything related to cats
16. Roses
17. Petunias
18. Fireworks
19. Perfumes
20. Music
21. Shopping
22. Highlands

I Believe

I believe in miracles. I believe there is true love out there. I believe that there is a special someone for me. I've gone through the test, yet again...sometimes I feel sick & tired of it all. I should be immune by now. The pain is unbearable at times but they say, "better to have loved than never been loved before".

So my darling, where are you?

When will our path meet?
When can I call you my own?

Come to me as I will be right here waiting...

2010...Bring it on!

2009... lot of unexpected happenings. 2010...What do you have in store for me?

Hey we've entered a new decade. I am looking forward to see what is in store for me. A few unexpected things happened in 2009. I had my Australian Visa approved so I can now work there for 3 years if I want to. I performed my Hajj in Makkah. Made so many new friends and traveled quite a bit. Work wasn't that great for me but hey, you can't have everything right?

2010 opened with an electrifying start but 16 days into the year, I've already had my heart broken again! How on earth that happened....I have no idea! I wished I could see the future but as the song goes, Que Sera Sera...whatever will be, will be. I shall accept what You have in store for me. But I do have a prayer or should I say a request. I know that you won't test me unless you think I can handle them but hey, please don't have too much confidence in me, give me a break!

Having said that, I thank You for the friends you sent me and my family who supports my decisions even thought some may be drastic ones and may seemed stupid at that time (or still is stupid now!). Thank you my friends for your shoulder that I've cried on, the hugs, lending your ears to listen to all my adventures, you know that I'll be there for you too.

So 2010....Bring it on!

Reading

I absolutely love reading. Especially fiction! There are times when I can relate so much with the character that it becomes scary and sometimes overwhelming.

I've cried myself to sleep reading a book. I've laughed out laud in a restaurant and cried while my hair is being colored at the hair salon. It's an experience and feeling you can't describe. I envy those authors. I wished I could write too. Maybe I could...after all, everyone has a story to tell.

Time and time again, I've wanted to put my thoughts into words. Write a book and dream that it would be a best seller! I've thought of a million titles but I'm not sure if it will ever be completed... I bought a book and carry it around with me in case I have an idea, I could jot it down, but lately I leave it behind.

I wanted to write about the things I see around me...my observation on life, people, happenings, my feelings, my experience... When will that happen? We'll just have to wait and see.

The Spirit of Unity...Peace on Earth!!

Always known to do things differently and love shocking people. It's Christmas eve and at 3pm, my plan to go salsa was changed out of the blue. Suddenly have the urge to attend Midnight Christmas Mass. What luck, my friend had to wait for the delivery guy to deliver their new TV, so I brought her parents to St Joseph's church.

Was not as crowded as I thought it would be. I was hoping to go to St. John's. (with unintended hidden agenda to check out people). So now I know what you do and now I understand and I will respect you. I do not have to agree with your ways but it helps us to learn to live with our differences, our religion and our culture. After all, we are sharing this planet.

A Simple Smile...

I sat at the mamak waiting for my half boiled eggs and my attention was drawn to a toddler. She had curly hair like Little Miss Muffet but they were not blond. Barely two years old, with her new found legs, she was walking, falling, walking and falling. This new acquired skill is fun...she must be thinking... As she got up to take another step, she looked up and caught my eyes. She gave me the most beautiful smile. A smile from a child...so pure...so innocent...
I was overwhelmed. Like the 'happy' button being pushed, I felt all bright and sunny! I smiled at her too and her grin got wider! For a moment, I forgot what I was upset about a few minutes ago... I forgot that my heart was broken by someone I call my friend. I close my eyes and I can still picture her smile. If only I could capture that smile...wait a minute...I did!...It's in my imemory and in my heart... A smile that made my day... a Simple Smile!